| Thursday, June 20th, 2002 |
| 11:41 pm |
i just pulled out my last smoke... hopefully it is actually my last smoke....... *crosses his fingers* |
| 11:32 pm |
i never really realized how lonely i am untill a little while ago... I was standing outside on our deck looking at the moon the clouds and the night sky... and it finaly hit me... all of this world is around me.. yet i am lonely... and i do not know why.... why can i not supress these feelings of sorrow and lonelyness...... only time will repair the damamge i have felt... btw my car runs now... :) one thing of many bad that i can be happy about |
| Saturday, June 8th, 2002 |
| 10:30 pm |
lifes loves and lifes hates all bring about the same end. Depression..... *sigh* ohh well on to bigger and better things... like..... let me ask this... what is the point of life? to live and love yet die in pain and suffering as the ones you care for leave..........enough said enough pain, enough lost, i am gone |
| Thursday, June 6th, 2002 |
| 11:59 pm |
well i got one of the most expensive parts today... my distributor.... the local autoparts store wanted 160 for it i just spent $50 on a refurbished one that will work perfectly and it came with everything i needed including a new cap and rotor yeay for used parts anyway my life still sucks....... |
| Wednesday, June 5th, 2002 |
| 9:50 pm |
my life really sucks..... why is suicide illegal? it doesnt make any sence to me.... anyway i am now working on my car and planing a road trip around the country... actually around... from washington state to california then to florida then to vermont and ohio and back to washington.... figure i just need about $4000 to go all the way...... :/ did i mention that my life sucks? |
| Friday, April 19th, 2002 |
| 4:29 am |
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| 4:16 am |
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| Wednesday, April 3rd, 2002 |
| 8:36 pm |
Manifestations of reality.... My mind has created/manifested a reality which i am trapped in. Everything around me is part of the manifestation. My mind has searched for a reality and in finding none it has created this one. Nothing is real it is all my manfested reality. Your not real, my body isnt real, the chair i am sitting on is not real. It is all my minds way of gripping with a lack of reality. It causes my eyes to see halucinations that i touch and my mind gives those halucinations a textrue. I am stuck in a world of belief with no way out. The only possible way out is for me to look at myself while standing infront of myself looking at myself confusing isn't it? Why am i typing this? anyone who reads it and responds is going to respond the way my mind has determined them to.... why? |
| 1:05 am |
 I taste of Death.
Doesn't everyone want a taste of death? Well they should. Most people deserve death. Keep away from me unless you think you're better than that. I probably won't like you. What Flavour Are You?
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Current Mood:  happyCurrent Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Californication (Vampire Radio - http://www.VampireRadio.com ) |
| 1:02 am |
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| 12:30 am |
manifestations of reality........to be continued..... |
| 12:11 am |
listening and looking around, wonder if apple would sell an ipod with their engraving service to say windows 2000 is the best! Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Dark Side Cowboys - Bloodred Moon (Vampire Radio - http://www.VampireRadio.com ) |
| 12:00 am |
hmmmmm wonder what this does... Current Mood: happy |
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